One Year Later...

 Here we are a year later. While the posts have been extremely lacking, my life has been VERY busy!

   

I've been working on embracing change, and for me change is frightening.   

I'm finding myself in places  I never thought I'd never be.  And me, being me, tends to fight change and all things uncomfortable, like a toddler who is refusing to take a nap.   I can be loud, destructive, and obstinate.  When I'm worn out from the fighting I've realized I accomplished nothing and am left so very tired.

Of course my terrible twosome keep me in check and bring me back to reality several times daily. 

I still enjoy my job and really like my coworkers; that being said, changes at work over the last few months have been a bit chaotic but they seem to be finally smoothing things out.  

 I found myself  slipping back into old habits that weren't healthy; saying 'yes' to many things at work that would (and did) end up taking a toll on my peace.

I have a strong work ethic but I think it's always been a bit out of balance.   The goal was to "work to live"  and not "live to work."   It's been a slippery slope but with encouragement from those who know me best, have pointed out when it gets obvious that I'm slipping into old habits.  

What I  can say is that especially the last week, I have learned to say no.   It's not a "bad"  no, and I don't even need to give reasons for saying it.   I have also spoken with health professionals who have helped me to figure out that  a recent schedule change has affected my health and after speaking with my employer, they are willing to accomodate my schedule a bit.   It will be beneficial for both of us as the shift change solves a staffing problem for them as well.

So I am going into this month with a bit more confidence.  I will say that this was a crazy Mercury Retrograde!   

A gift from a lady I crossed paths with at work one day.

I have had several opportunities for continuing to grow and I'm trying them out.  Big girl pants and all.  I've accomplished so much over the last year!  A sort of time clock has started for me for the next year and I have a lot to accomplish.   

It will be  one of the biggest life transition years ever.  

I'm excited and apprehensive.  

I have lists to make, and goals to set. 

I have a journal/planner and am working hard to use it.

I have renewed my domain for a couple of years and one goal is to incorperate this and my other blog into it.  

I hope to see you all again soon!